Oh, it is absolutely wonderful to be back in St Louis. I can't remember the last time I was here where I could just relax. It seems like we are always in and out over the course of a day or two. It has been so delightful to spend time with my friends and have quiet time at home. I have my mom's place all to myself.
I also can't remember the last time I had a couple days to myself. With the three of us living on top of each other in our teeny apartment, it is nice to have some space and quiet. However, I haven't been enjoying the nighttime much, as I get a little nervous and paranoid being here alone and in such a large space.
My 2nd MA exam is quickly approaching and will be done soon. Whew. And then back to Chicago with my friend Jason, who I am hitching a ride with.
In the last 2 and 1/2 days I have been able to dote on five little ones, do some serious car dancing with Dave, eat delish food, have intense conversations, hang out with a favorite prof, and spend time with beloved old friends. I am really hoping we will move back here in a couple years when we are both done at Loyola. St Louis is SO much easier to live in. Plus, I have such a wonderful abundance of friends here who I feel so close to and connected with. They are all pushing for us to come back. It feels nice to be missed and wanted. The only regret I have in recent years is the move to Chicago - though it was worth it in the long run, so I could be with Graham. I am tired of feeling so alone and isolated. Graham is definitely open to the idea of moving back here - but we will see what the school/work situation is at that point. I called him tonight and said, "I don't want to come home - I just want you to come here." I will be back in Chicago in less than 2 days, but will be back in STL in 2 weeks......so, that is something to look forward to.
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