pulling myself out of the muck

Ugh. Where did my energy go?? I think it ran away and I am looking for it.....desperately.

So, as of Jan 1st I went vegetarian. This wasn't a problem as I was one for years and it was easy for me to re-adjust. It also helps that I am married to one. I haven't felt much change since then, except a reduction in overall appetite, which is fine with me. So, then, last week for a number of reasons I decide to cut caffeine out of my diet, entirely. So, as of Friday, this was done. I also figured while I was at it to cut out artificial sweeteners. If I am not drinking caffeine, why on earth would I even bother with soda anymore? So, I am now on juice and the occasional Sprite at a restaurant. My mom always says a little sugary soda now and then is way better than a boatload of chemical sweeteners. So, I will go with that.....

Well, I crawled through a 24 hour caffeine withdrawl migraine headache on Sunday. Monday I was still pretty bleh and tired. My body always takes an additional day to recover after a migraine. They are so brutal. So, then yesterday I was tired all day and then painfully tired by the time I got home in the evening. Today, I could barely manage to push myself out of bed. I drove Graham to work this morning, and could barely keep my eyes open in the car. I came back home and slept and slept. I just feel horrible.

So, has caffeine been keeping my motor running artificially? Am I really this much of a mess? I am guessing I need more protein in my diet. I also need more exercise. Right now, I don't even walk much downtown because of the snow. In the nicer weather I was walking the 2 mile jaunt to the Metra station from class. I felt so much better, all around. Now, it's a pain to get to the corner to meet the bus.

Graham and I are talking about joining the fitness club up the street. They have an indoor pool, a track with a little give so it's easier on the knees, basketball courts, fitness center, whirlpool, sauna, etc.....I am hoping we can join. I spoke to the membership guy today and he gave us a pretty good deal. There is a 30 day money back trial, so I am hoping Graham is game.

Just so I could get out of bed, I forced myself into sweats and sneakers and took Kerry out for a walk around the neighborhood. The sun is out today and it was a blessing to get some exercise and soak in a little sun. I definitely feel better for it.

I think I am also down because I got a really bad haircut. The woman actually layer my bangs.....you hear me?? layered!! I have little short pieces mixed in with my regular bangs. What is this?? 1986?? UGH! I am now tempted to get REALLY short bangs, just to even them out. Layered?? sheesh. I just said to trim them.....not destroy them! haha

If we do join the health club, I will need to buy a swimsuit. Now, that should be fun. *rolls eyes*